PERFECT DAY

For Jono

Under the shade of the wide-leafed Maple,
turning your waffle cone to catch
the rivulets of Rocky Road, you casually
mention that when you were homeless
you played a piano in an abandoned house.

 How the light left long shadows, how the temperature
dropped in your skin, how you scrabbled long enough
the house whispered to you, like the fox underneath
the backyard brambles when you were twelve,
before your episodes began and your parents went quiet.

 Windows crusted with icy condensation,
walls fended off sleet and anxiety,
the scritch of a skunk perhaps, under
the floorboards, the smell of emptiness.
A Baldwin souring in the corner of the living room.

Days of boredom, yet half-warmth. Nights
dreaming your hands were amputated.
One soft hour, the light broke across the keys and
you played your radiant music so long
and so loud, you stitched notes to the sky.

 Published in Pink Panther Magazine



REBIRTH, AT 14

My five brothers and sisters halt
their orchestra of silverware,
stop chewing in mid-bite,
as my father, after a day of hospital
rounds and thirty patients, sweeps
all 80 pounds of me out of my chair.

I want to say, “It just slipped
right down!” but the pot roast
is a fist lodged in my throat
and milk burns my nostrils,
drips out into the air I gasp for.
Was this like my first breath?

 We whirl the corner,
pass the jury of coats
hung on two rows of hooks
on the wall. My father,
comfortable with saving lives,
had he time for a closing statement,
would beg now to save
part of his own.

 We charge the sink, blood
pumping my face. I am
dead weight, soulless,
below angels that float
in light, left to the final judge. 

Shreds of meat and milky potatoes
splash the sides, the verdict
announced in the air that rushes
my lungs. With his surgeon hands
still pounding my back, 

I am born again to my father.

 

Published in South Carolina Review

 


MY BROTHER FISHES LAKE CURLEW

From my cabin porch
     I see him
standing at dock’s end 

rod in hand
    like an extended appendage
carved-out dawn above 

the unruffled water.
     He’ll be there all morning
casting and re-casting 

conversing with silence.
     How is it that
in hiddenness 

he sees a flash
     of silvery scales
sees iridescence 

a mouth wide and ready?
      Poised above
the jewel-like scattering 

of sun on water,
     he waits
sometimes hours 

for the next fish
     to ghost up
from the depths.  

He sees water
     the way a fish views it –
egoless, forgetting     

worldly desires
     excesses, and discarding
regrets. 

I admire his cell
     -like humility
his gratitude for 

what is given
     from the water --
its miraculous things.  

 Published in Cascade Rising Review


IMPARTIAL MEMORIES

Not my first time overnight in an airport hotel
in a foreign country. A pre-dawn flight out means
I kill time walking cobblestone streets. The town
in riposo so I enter other spaces—

the shadows of shutter-dressed apartments,
garbage cans sunstruck and weighty on curbs,
surprisingly, inside the local cemetery
Here, photographs adorn above-ground graves.

I leave and think ironically
Nothing much to do here but live.
I, a passerby, a temporary fixture,
never to return again, will sleep worry-free

in my soundproof room tonight.
When asked about my trip I will go on
and on about the cathedrals, castles, villas, and museums,
the pastas, cheeses, and wines. And yet,

my quiet neighborhood walk amid white stucco,
red roofs, unfamiliar trees, and the sound of the local
church bells ringing, that’s a memory I like too—
and the Italian cat on the windowsill closing her eyes to the sun.

 Published in Hitchlit Review